Friday, December 26, 2008

Starting School

Sorry guys…I’ve been building posts but not posting. Gimme a week and they will all be up!


November 2nd 2008

I start school this week and I am just slightly freaked out. I don’t know what to expect, I don’t know if I can do this, and I don’t know how I will do it. But, my line of credit is here, OSAP is on its way and they are sending me my books as we speak so I guess we will just have to wait to find out. Eep! . I just want to do something for my future you know? I don’t want to work in the careers I’ve been in, I want something new and something that might actually make some money to survive reasonably well.

My classes this semester are as follows:
Intro to Composition
Intro to Mass Media
History of Music
Intro to Anthropology
Prose Forms

I like that Crickett is here with me when I start school because I think he will help put me in a routine since he does his degree online too. He might be here to stay this time and I am so excited. I hate being apart from him. There is nothing I like better than falling asleep next to him. I don’t have to worry about being cold at night because he is one hot tamale!! I love my Crickett

Saturday, July 26, 2008

Anton Ziegler

I'd like to talk about my grandpa for a minute if that's OK. He died about 2 weeks ago, of complications after a massive stroke 6 weeks earlier. This tragedy made me question whether or not that was the beginning of the end. Our family has its problems like most families do I'm sure, but for holidays and celebratory times we came together to be with each other. But how close of a family are we? My grandparents are the nucleus of the family, they are the root. With my grandpa passing there is only my grandmother to keep the family rooted and when she goes...i just don't know how strong we are to all get together for those same reasons without them. There are no more birthday or anniversaries of my grandparents to celebrate and holidays will be spent with every ones own little bunch. With my grandpas passing, the entire dynamic of our family will change, and this is a loss I mourn as well.

I'm sure people would tell me that I must have seen a picture or been told a story and I only think I remember this, but I honestly believe that when I close my eyes, I can remember being an infant laying safe and sleepy on his belly. I can feel that warmth and comfort still with every fibre of my being when I think of him, and I wish I could hug him still.

I was lucky though, when he had his last massive and immobilizing stroke, he stuck it out long enough for us to fly down to Saskatchewan and give our love and say goodbye. I dont know how I would have done had I not had that opportunity, since I was unable to make to the funeral. My very last moments with my grandfather was sitting in the hospital in the middle of the night holding my grandfathers hand as we watched "What About Bob?" on the television. He couldn't talk or move very well so we simply sat in companionable silence together, I think both knowing that this was our last time together. Im grateful for that moment.

I love my grandpa very much, and I miss him.

Saturday, July 19, 2008

Family Matters

I'm just... really angry. Not really disappointed which is unfortunate because that would mean I expected better, but I really didn't.
What am I angry about you ask?

Well over a year ago my parents separated which I was actually happy about as my parents had been making each other miserable for years. However shortly after their separation it was discovered that my father was having relations with a friend of ours. A friend we spent every Sunday and several holidays a year with. This woman helped fix up our house, spent time with my mom during the separation offering support all the while she was...with my father... They had hooked up while my father was still living in the same house as my mother and they were barely separated, and not even legally yet. They acted inappropriately. Both of them blatantly flirting with each other long before the separation occurred. It was so obvious that not only did we all see it, friends of all of ours commented on it as well. They got caught and immediately the defenses went up and suddenly everyone else was in the wrong and not them. My father even found our reaction disrespectful. The entire thing was messy and didn't need to happen, if everyone (my father and the BEEP!) had been honest.
Anyway to make a long story short, we do not talk to her and my brother and I did not talk to my father in almost a year. His narcissism and inability to take responsibility for what he had done made it impossible for a relationship with him to continue.
Well a little over a month ago now we received an email from my father stating that my grandfather was dying of cancer and to top it off he had just suffered a massive stroke, was paralyzed on the right side of his body and was in the hospital fighting for his life. I ignored the fact that he emailed me this information rather than growing some balls and calling his children as the situation required and called him for the details. Next thing you know, 3 hours later after having not spoken in over 10 months my brother and I are driving 5 hours Ottawa at 8:30 at night to pick up flight passes and fly to Saskatchewan. We stopped at my cousins to pick up the passes and had a short 30 min nap at 2:30am, then we drove to the airport and flew to Saskatoon, where we rented a car and drove to Battleford where my grandpa was in the hospital. We spent 3 days by his side before doing the entire thing in reverse. That was a stressful and exhausting situation, but I was thankful I was able to see my grandpa before he passed.
It was inevitable that we were going to hash things out, being in a high stress, close quartered situation like that makes it nearly impossible for that to not happen. And so we did the last day of travelling. On the way home from Sask. we were sitting in a restaurant in Ottawa having some lunch, and the three of us had it out. My brother felt better about the situation in the end, and I could tell my father did as well, but the episode just angered me more. He lied to my face, he lied about the incidents that transpired he clearly didn't feel he was in the wrong. He tried to turn my mother against me by trying to have me question her character, he accused her of being the reason why he had lost his job, and he continued to blame everyone else. It was during this heated discussion that I realized my father was never going to change. He had always been like this, and likely always would be. Not very comforting, but a reality nonetheless. I should mention that he did actually apologize for hurting us, that I am sure of he never meant to do, he just never thought of anyone else.
So getting home and his birthday and fathers day was the next weekend I try to be nice and ask him to brunch or lunch or something on fathers day, but he already has plans with HER, and her ex husband who p.s left her for a Thai woman half his age. Now if you were trying to repair your relationship with your estranged daughter, wouldn't you maybe reschedule with the other non father related people? He chose to spend FATHERS DAY with this messed up new family than his own daughter and instead schedule another time with me. Fathers day this year was one big disappointment, but I guess it shouldn't have been a surprise. I knew who I was trying to make plans with.
So now it has been over a month later and my grandpa passed away last week. My dad cant afford second plane tickets again for my brother and I again and I understand, but what actually infuriates me is that he brought HER! My family loves my mother and has never met her. A death is not the time to introduce her. She got to be with my family whom I love during a time of need, and I got to stay at home and wish I was there. I missed my grandfathers funeral and this woman who never met my grandfather was able to go. It did not occur to my father that the price of her flight could have gotten his children a standby ticket each and then they would have been able to go instead.

Im leaving out a lot of details when I rant about this but you get the idea of how this has all been frustrating me. Its hard being the adult with your parent.

Ive had a crappy time.

Friday, July 4, 2008

William H. Seward

Most of you know that I really enjoy reading, which is good because for this Alaska research I have been doing a looooot of that. I was asked to do a bulleted biography of William H. Seward who was the Secetary of State at that time. He turns out to be a very interesting man. He spoke out against slavery and used his house as a part of the underground railroad. These are big things especially considering the time. This all took place in the 1800's.
I've attached my research to this blog.

HI JIM AND JAAAAAYYYYYY :) I'll email you soon


William H. Seward


Birth and Academia
- Born in 1801 in Florida, Orange County, New York
- Was the fourth of six children born to Samuel S. and Mary J. Seward.
- His father was a physician and later a judge
- In 1819, teaching in Georgia, the indignity of slavery first made an impression on him and later influenced him to become one of the most outspoken anti-slavery politicians of the time. **
- Attended Union College in Schenectady, New York, graduating in 1820
Early Career and Marriage
- Seward trained in law offices in Goshen and New York City
- Passed the New York State Bar in 1821.
- That same year, he met Frances Miller of Auburn
- Seward moved to Auburn, New York, in 1823 and entered into a law partnership with Frances' father, Judge Elijah Miller.
- 1824, Seward asked the Judge for permission to marry. Judge Miller allowed the match on the condition that William and Frances share the Miller home on South Street with him.
- William H. Seward and Frances Miller had five children - Augustus, Frederick, Cornelia, William and Frances "Fanny".
- At the age of 29, William Seward was elected as an Anti-Mason to the New York State Senate.
- In 1838 he won election as the first Whig Party governor of New York and was reelected again in 1840.
- During his gubernatorial terms, he extended the canal system through the state, promoted the building of the Croton Aqueduct, established libraries in the public school system and abolished imprisonment for debt.
- He also was a supporter of prison and education reforms, and the emerging antislavery movement
- Seward returned to Auburn in 1846, used the insanity defense to defend William Freeman (a mentally-ill African-American who had murdered a white farmer and his family.)**
- Seward lost the case but won a retrial. Freeman died in prison before the second trial could begin.


Career in Senate
- New York State Legislature voted Seward into the United States Senate in 1848. During his twelve years as a United States Senator, Seward helped to organize the new Republican Party
- He also worked to bring California into the Union as a free, not slave-holding state.
- He was also a member of the Foreign Relations Committee.
- William H. and Frances Seward used their home in the 1850s to shelter fugitive slaves as part of the Underground Railroad. **
- Seward was also instrumental in helping Harriet Tubman settle in Auburn and secure property on South Street which was to be her home for over fifty years.
- Seward never attained, the highest office in the land.
- A front-runner at the 1860 Republican presidential nominating convention, the party ultimately supported Abraham Lincoln.
- Seward accepted Lincoln's request to serve as Secretary of State, and he signed and helped to write the Emancipation Proclamation,
- This became law on January 1st, 1863.
Secretary Seward by Mathew Brady, 1861
- Secretary Seward was stabbed in his Washington home on April 14, 1865, the same night President Lincoln was shot in the Ford Theater.
- The attacker, Lewis Powell, a co-conspirator with Booth, injured five people.
- Seward recovered from his injuries and continued to serve as Secretary of State for President Andrew Johnson.
- During this administration, the United States purchased the Alaska Territory from Russia for $7,200,000.00.
- Derided by critics as "Seward's Folly," this purchase became one of Seward's greatest legacies.


Retirement
- In 1869, William Seward retired from the State Department
- He spent most of the remainder of his life traveling.
- He visited Alaska in June 1869 and later enjoyed a fourteen-month trip around the world.
- When Seward returned from his world tour, he began writing a book about his travels.
- Seward died in his home in Auburn on October 10, 1872 following a short illness.
- His last words to his family were to "Love one another."

Friday, June 27, 2008

Oh Yeah

I changed the settings on this thing so anyone should be able to comment, and not just those with a google account.

Alaska

Don't worry, I haven't gotten bored already, I've just been a teensy bit busy. I have been recruited by my father to do some research on Alaska for some movie producer. Specifically around the time it was purchased from Russia. I am to try and find information regarding various native tribes at that time and how this acquisition effected them both as an individual and as a tribe.
This information is a little more obscure than I thought it would, and I haven't been able to find much so far.
The more I read the more I am more interested and bored at the same time. I just end up reading the same information over and over and over and over and over.
And over.

I am going to share with you what a weeks worth of reading has found for me regarding different tribes:

Alaskan Tribes


Ahtena.
Signifying "Ice People"
Also called Copper River Indians

The mouth of Copper River was discovered by Nagaieff in 1781
expeditions into the interior met on the part of the natives that for a long time they were a failure.
The attempts of Samoylof in 1796, Lastóchkin in 1798, Klimoffsky in 1819, and Gregorief in 1844 all ended in the same way. Serebrannikof ventured up the river in 1818, his disregard for the natives cost him his life and the lives of three of his companions.
In 1882 after the cession of Alaska to the States, a trader named Holt ascended as far as Taral but on a subsequent visit he was killed by the natives.
In 1884 Lt. Abercrombie explored a part of the river
In 1885 a thorough exploration of the whole region was made by Lt. Allen, who visited the Ahtena villages on Copper River and on its principal tributaries. From that time on intercourse between the river people and Whites has been increasingly intimate.
Estimated poplutation of 500 Ahtena for the year 1740.
Numbers in 1880 at not more than 300.
The census of 1890 returned 142, and that of 1910, 297.
Population Decline

Aleut.
Meaning "island,"

The Aleut became known to the Russians after the voyages of Chirikoff and Bering in 1741
Discovery of the islands being attributed to Mikhail Nerodchikof, September 1745.
The natives at first resisted the actions of the foreign traders but their darts were no match for firearms, and they were forced into the service of their masters as allies in attacks upon more distant peoples. It is said they were soon reduced to one-tenth of their former numbers.
In 1794-1818 the Russian Government interfered to protect them from exploitation

Estimated population in 1740 were 16,000 Aleut.
Population of 750 in 1834 and the Unalaska population as 1,497.
In 1848 population estimated at 1,400 reduced to 900 as a result of the smallpox epidemic of that year.
The census of 1890 there were 1,702, including 734 mixed-bloods.
The census of 1910 returned 1,451.

-The name of the Aleut from their language is derived the word Alaska, applied to Alaska Territory, and to Alaska Peninsula

Koyukon.
Meaning "people of Koyukuk River."Russian influences began to penetrate the country of the Koyukon after the establishment of the Russian settlement of before any settlements had been made on the Kuskokwim or Yukon.
1838 the Russian settlement on the lower Yukon was made at Nulato,
The post was attacked by neighboring Indians in 1851 and most of the inmates butchered.
American ownership in 1867 the influences of civilization began to increase, and the current was swollen still further by the discovery of gold,

Estimated population was 1,500 Koyukon in the year 1740. In 1890, 940 were returned.
Kutcha-kutchin.
Signifying "those who dwell on the flats,"
Were first brought into contact with Europeans when Alexander Mackenzie met some of them in 1789 during descent of the river which bears his name.
This became more intimate with the establishment of the first Fort Good Hope in 1847.
The discovery of gold in the Klondike region which marked the opening of a new era for these people, one in which the bad for a long time outweighed the good.Estimated population of about 500 of these Indians in 1740.
The Kutcha-kutchin and the Tranjikkutchin may be put together as Kutchin in the census of 1910, which enters 359.
The Hudson's Bay Co.'s census of 1858 gave 842 Kutchin belonging to six tribes as resorting to Fort Yukon.
The Kutchin tribes were noted for their greater energy and more warlike character, as compared with neighboring Athapascans, and for a peculiar three-caste system in their social organization.
Tanaina
Meaning, "people" exclusive of Eskimo and Europeans. Also called Knaiakhotana.
-Cook Inlet received its name from Captain Cook who entered it in May 1778, but all of the natives met by him seem to have been Eskimo.
The Russian settlement of Kodiak in 1784 marked an important event for the history of the region because the Russians, assisted by Aleut hunters, at once began to exploit the animal wealth of the neighboring region, and Cook Inlet was a principal scene of their activities.
Captain Douglas visited the inlet in. 1788.
Russian ownership gave place to ownership by the United States in 1867, but Cook Inlet was exploited relatively little until the railroad line was built from Seward to Fairbanks and skirted the head of the inlet for many miles.
The Tanaina Indians were one of the last groups in Alaska to receive attention from ethnologists.Estimated population of about 1,200 Tanaina in 1740.
In 1818, 1,471 natives were enumerated in Cook Inlet.
In 1825 Baron Wrangell returned 1,299.
1,628 and in 1860 the Holy Synod returned 937.
The census of 1880 returned 614 and that o
The census of 1890, 724.
Estimated 890 in 1900.

Tlingit
Signifying "people,"
Also called Kolusehan, a name given to them as a linguistic family by Powell - According to native tradition, some Tlingit families came into their present territories from the coast farther south while others entered from the interior.
In 1741 Chirikoff and Bering discovered the Tlingit country
They were soon followed by other Russian explorers as well as by explorers and traders from Mexico, England, France, and New England.
Among the noteworthy events of this period was the visit of La Pérouse to Lituya Bay in 1786 and the tragic loss of two of his boats loaded with men in the tide rips at its entrance.
In 1799 the Russians built a fort near the present Sitka.
In 1802 the Sitka Indians rose upon this post, killed part of its inmates, and drove the rest away
2 years later Baranoff drove them from their fort in turn and established on its site a post which grew into the present Sitka, the capital successively of Russian America and Alaska Territory until 1906.
Russian rule was so harsh that there were frequent outbreaks among the natives so long as the territory remained under their control.
In 1836 to 1840 occurred a terrible epidemic of smallpox, brought up from the Columbia River, which swept away hundreds of Indians.
In 1840 the Hudson's Bay Company took a lease from the Russian American Company of all their lands between Cape Splicer and latitude 54° 40' N.
In 1867 the Tlingit were transferred will, the rest of the Alaskan people to the jurisdiction of the United States and since then they have been suffering ever more rapid transformation under the influences of western civilization.Estimated population of about 10,000 Tlingit in 1740.
5,850 for the year 1835,
In 1861 a reported 8,597 as the result of a census.
The census of 1880 gave 6,763, but the census of 1890 showed only 4,583, not counting the Tlingitized Ugalakmiut.
The census of 1910 returned 4,426; that of 1920, 3,895

I have a bit more of course. I have information on the treaty and ANCSA 1971 (Alaska Native Claims Settlement Act), but this is all information they already have. I feel that I could be doing this for a long time. However, at least a little bit ago I was able to find something that could be a lead to more detailed or apparently obscur information.

It is interesting but...

Too much Alaska
Too much.

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

grumble

I need to tell you that I am feeling a high level of frustration. HIGH LEVEL. OK the thing is I need to move out of my goddamn house. out out out. I need to move out and I need to move out very soon. I believe the word is escape. Been there, done that, have a collection of t-shirts. I don't want to be treated like I'm 12 anymore. I'm 26 and I will clean my room when I want to. This idea of escaping however is complicated by the following factors: 1) I do not have enough money. 2) I do not want to live alone. 3)I cant decide which is of a more urgent nature; a car or moving out.

I need a car. I need a car. Its not that I want to drive all the time, however in such times as: 1)long distance travel, 2)extreme weather, and 3)the need to escape a vehicle would come in very handy.

My job, oh how I love my job. I love my staff, and my chums at head office, and my fellow manager amigas. I love talking to my customers and finding something that we just fall in love with. I LOVE MAKING TARGET! And while I used to panic endlessly about not making target, now that we are making target I stress about that. The stress never ends. I need to get over that. Its very tiring.

My feet. Sweet Jesus my feet hurt. Not just an ache, but a crippling, throbbing pain. They are red and sore to the touch hours after being back home. It is almost unbearable and yet somehow I manage to go through this every blessed day. I'm a martyr for Vivah.

I need to figure out this diet thing. I fell off the wagon over a year ago now, and I am having immense difficulty climbing back on. Blah, I wanna be good. I do I do I do. I just cant seem to do it. I know I loved it, I know I was good at it, I know it was proven successful...so then we need to ask ourselves what my damn problem is.

Um I miss my boyfriend. Like, a lot. He's pretty cute, and sometimes he can make a joke, I mean a funny one. He is also pretty damn amazing to cuddle with. There is nothing I like more than snuggling right up to him. The fact that he lives in Virginia doesn't make this easy.

All these things are coupled with various other stresses in my life, several of them of significant importance and I tell you, I am about to go stark raving mad.

bloody hell.